I'm Not Who I Was

Hello all! Sorry to have been gone so long. If you're still reading this, thank you for your faithfulness! I am now planning to do the unthinkable...after three months sans blog, I'm going to post twice in an hour. I know, crazy, right? I really do have a sound explanation for it, even though it seems a bit out of the ordinary. I have two separate trains of thought stewing around in my mind right now, and neither track really runs into the other. So each railway needs a separate line, or even entry. Thus two blogs within an hour of one another. So read at the risk of being run over, but hopefully you'll hop back on with me and we'll be on the same track again. :-)

The last couple of months, I've been reading about finding reconciliation with others and not harboring anger or bitterness for things that are past. Some of these thoughts have led me to great conversations and peace with others, but there are those people in my past who are now unreachable. This doesn't change the fact that I think about them often and long to say something, anything to bring about peace.

With that in mind, this song hit the airwaves and hit my ears in a very mighty manner. The words resonate deeply in my soul. So for all of you who knew me when, read these lyrics and know they are the cry of my heart. For all of you who live in the present with me, look at this as an opportunity to know: I'm not who I was. With the help of God, I am constantly changing into someone who seeks grace, love and peace more and more each day. May I never be who I was the day before; may I always be a work in progress. And may I remember the same about each person I encounter. We are all a work in progress!

"I'm Not Who I Was"

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was

I found my way around
To forgiving you
Some time ago
But I never got to tell you so

I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was

When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend
It was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you

I reckon it's a funny thing
I figured out I can sing
Now I'm not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
I'm not who I was

I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know
I am not the same
But I never did forget your name
Hello

Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was